Brave

Dreams... It's important to keep dreaming, my Dad told me recently over the phone as I gave him a list of things I'd like to eventually do when I am feeling better. I've had a few good days this week and it's been a nice reprieve from constant pain and misery. But no matter how good, I still feel prisoner to my body. I spend endless hours dreaming of the day I will be able to run, play soccer with my little boy, ride bikes with my little family, go rock climbing with my husband, finally learn to snowboard and love it! I dream about breaking free from the chains and weight that hold me down EVERY SINGLE DAY! So today when I was able to do 10 minutes of a very watered down version of zumba in my basement, I cheered. But then I yearned for more, I wanted so badly to hop on the treadmill and run, only I knew I can't right now. So my moment of excitement turned into another moment of feeling imprisoned once again. But I have dreams, and because of that, I will keep trying and keep going.

One day I will walk a 5k (hopefully sooner than later!), and then one day I will run a 5k wearing a shirt that proudly states that I am a Lyme Disease Warrior. I am proud to state that. So I will keep fighting everyday, no matter what may come.

And those that know me, know I LOVE music, so heres a favorite right now:

                                                                  "Brave"
                                                           By Josh Groban

Wake up, wake up, the sun cannot wait for long
Reach out, reach out before it fades away
You will find the warmth when you surrender
Smile into the fear and let it play

You wanna run away, run away
And you say that it can't be so
You wanna look away, look away
But you stay 'cause it's all so close
When you stand up and hold out your hand
In the face what I don't understand
My reason to be brave

Hold on, hold on so strong, time just carries on
All that you thought was wrong is pure again
You can't hide forever from the thunder
Look into the storm and feel the rain

You wanna run away, run away
And you say that it can't be so
You wanna look away, look away
But you stay 'cause it's all so close
When you stand up and hold out your hand
In the face what I don't understand
My reason to be brave

Go on, go on

You wanna run away run away
And you say that it can't be so
You wanna look away look away
But you stay 'cause it's all so close
When you stand up and hold out your hand
In the face what I don't understand
My reason to be brave

So all of you out there struggling with your own trials, hold on to your dreams, be brave and just keep going, one small step at a time. Till next time...